I'm absolutely crazy about you and you haven't responded to me in two days.
This is killing me. How do people do distance? How did my parents do it decades ago? I just want you by my side. Now and always.

It doesn't help that every place I leave from or go to, always, and I mean always has a plane or a train that could take me straight to you. Who knew Zurich was such a popular destination?
... well they have you, so that makes them pretty amazing and lucky.

It's like I finally have a fresh breath.
You possessed my thoughts here for so long, so it's unusual that skyping with you was what finally released me. I still can't shake quite shake you, but even if we're meant to have a love story, it will happen later.
Not now.
Not here.
Now I'm in Europe.
This is my time and my time alone. No regrets.

Plus, there's this Swiss guy I can't stop thinking about.

"I can't believe you actually came here"

"I had to. How could I miss out on you?"

You exceeded my expectations in every way. I wish I could give all of myself to you, if only someone else didn't already have part of my heart.

The last possible thing I want to do is hurt you.
Maybe things will change, I guess time will tell. But until then, know that you make me a world of happy and if it were just you and me in this world, I would never need anything else.

I can't believe the three words that just popped into my brain while we were facebook chatting. I can't explain any of this, this can't be real. Can it?

But I have another boy coming this weekend and I just desperately want to focus on him. He deserves all of that and more. I hate being torn like this.